Matter over Mind

Okay so I may have flashbacks, and insane paranoia. but when it comes down to it, I have to really start being sure I am in trouble before I freak out. So I must say in MY case it is NOT Mind over Matter, but Matter over Mind. Jace is helpful and Cole is being nicer but I can not shake the feeling that something is up with him. I dont know, but I guess things are getting better. One step at a time. You know?

Pity

I hate when people pity me. cant they just leave me alone? if they dont understand what I go through then go away, right? ugh. I wish that year with HIM never happened...then again...who wouldnt?

FEAR FEAR FEAR!!!

Oh lord I am so scared! Lucy took on a new charge, Cole, and Jace is closer to me than ever! What have I gotten my self in to? WHAT? I just want to be alone and away from the male population!!!!!

my bright side is coming

my bright side is starting to come i think. they have added more security to me and i am so grateful. i fell like there is no possible way that He can get me and i get to see someone who makes me happy. cant wait for school tomarrow!! xoxoxo updates to come. :)

Whoa. lets start a new day with out the world falling apart..

Hello followers!! Ebony here. So for some reason my comments are posting to reply to you! (sadface) so this is to the follower 'ifbyyes' :Hey after what ive been through i ask myself if im insane everyday...so sorry, i love the use of exclamations...i mean i am only 16. :) and there was a 'doctor lock it' which is an intruder in the school...they never caught him so i dont know if it is him... and by him i mean my kidnapper (yikes)

and this is my daily post. now for some reason my internet was down but its back up and im REALLY sorry for the delay! okay so my last post was just crazy! i was at school and there was a doctor lock it 'refer to the paragraph above' and i was freaking out. i just cant bare the thought of him (my persuer) getting me again. but jace was there and he comforted me. (thankfully) at least until a big comotion happened at the door and jace got in the way. i pushed him out of the way just in time, and got the consiquence of getting shot! im okay now though. went to the hospital and the patched me all up. now im stuck with worry that the intruder was 'Him' and the guilt of giving in to Jace. So my question to my followers is.... "SHOULD I TELL JACE ABOUT WHAT IS GOING ON, OR KEEP IT TO MYSELF??"

OH MY GOODNESS

talk about biggest scare of my life!! well not really....but it scared me!!! although im sort of glad Jace--boy who i met in school--- was there. i might not have made it....

Ebony

so very shy!!! i cant stop thinking about Jace....He was so nice...but soo UGGHH...ya know?? :/ so no one ever answered me...are you out there?!! have u been extinct!!?? come on, please comment!!!! :(

Hello again!!...Ebony

hello, mann today was scary!! i was totally freaked!! i met a boy who had to show me around to get out of troube---lame, right?---well any way he was cute with some breath taking eyes!! icey blue, the kinda blue u only see on baby symese kittys!!! but he asked to many questions and what can i say, i freaked!!! i mean it sent me into a flash back!! UGGHH i dont really know anymore...is life worth living if you live it in fear??...............IS ANYONE OUT THERE OR AMI JUST RAMBELING TO MY SELF?????? HELLLPPPP!!!!

Ebony again...

this whole blog thing is great i can really express my self!! :D mannn tomarrow is the big day!! i start school tomarrow... (gulp) im so nervous!! what if we have a...whats it called? doctor lock it?? where theres a tress passer??? and its HIM oh lord i cant handle it. the suspense is killing me!!!!!! please please pleas help me!! world???? what does it take to get you to care??? please help me!!! i wonder if Lucy thinks ive gone crazy....well havent i? im not sure...if a person lives her life in day to day paranoia...than its insanity... right? oh gosh i dont know....is anyone even listening???

Ebony.....its a new day

every day i feel like i can have a new hope. i feel like he will be gone forever. i know i probably shouldnt get my hopes up, but i just cant help it. im accualy kind of happy today....Lucy was tring to let me sleep in, i accually got some sort of rest last night.i might check in later....did anyone come up with a good way to stay concealed!!!???? anyone? please help mee!!

Ebony here

hey uhm, world? ive decided to go with the whole blog thing that someones set up for me...so im Ebony(no last name, because he might see this) life has really turned around for me... im with Lucy, my pretend gaurdian for now, and she accually enrolled me in school!!! yea sure im 15 and i need to go, but im basically in hiding right now!! ugh, i cant even sleep through the night because i get scared he will find me, and now i have to go to a PUBLIC school!!! grrr. how can i cope guys? or girls? do you have any suggestions?? i already wear a big hoodie that hides my face... im so terrified...please comment if you have advice!!! YOU might really help me!!! (looking for help!!!!!!) :/